Sunday, November 16, 2008


On the Women's Retreat we were asked (just like last year) to draw a picture demonstrating where we were spiritually; my picture was based off of Jonahs cry/prayer in chapter 2

Those who cling to worthless idols
forfeit the grace that could be theirs

At the time, I was experiencing such an overwhelming feeling that I had been serving a counterfeit God. That I was somehow missing the God of the Bible. I had replaced Him with my distorted, less than glorious, less than worthy god. I had clung so tightly to worthless worthless idols, that I was missing the work and the hand of God all around me. And I had served this counterfeit god for sooo long that when smacked with the Gospel, it seemed all of sudden too good too be true. I am loved beyond my wildlest dreams. Your plans for me are for my benefit (Jer. 29:11)?! You are TRUSTWORTHY?! Mind blowing. Here's to preaching TRUTH to yourself.

I shared these lyrics as well, here's a snippet

Jonny Lang- Only A Man

I fell down and cried, Dear Jesus, rescue me again
I understand I am only a man

And He said,
What will it be now? Will you choose me or keep swimming up stream now? I've been inside your head hearing you scream out. Well here I am, just take my hand and I'll take out All of the pain and all of the fear All of the fear

I'll give you my burdens
I'll give you peace

All of my desires
I'll give you what you need

Oh, what about these chains, Lord?
I'll set you free

But they're so heavy
Lay them at my feet

I'll lay them at your feet....Just promise you won't leave
I'll never leave

So where do I go from here, Lord?
Just follow me
Just follow me

Monday, November 10, 2008

Sunday, November 9, 2008


I love love, probably for the same [slightly] voyeuristic reason I love reality TV or being in community---knowing that you are not alone and no matter how bad you think your 'secret' may be there are many many others in cahoots. So I was pretty delighted when while browsing the site today I noticed a followup to one of my fave quotes from The Perks of Being a Wallflower

Such a powerful quote! Seriously --- that's something to chew on when thinking about relationships. I was chatting with Nora one night after Navs and she commented on what first struck her about Christianity after she accepted Christ a few years ago, and she said: "I love how insanely and impossibly relational Christ's ministry was/is" So so true!

[per usual]
[must. write. paper. :-P ]

Thursday, November 6, 2008

Why, Hello


Once upon a time Xanga and I were the best of friends. I'd write, he'd listen, others would comment. It was an excellent relationship....and then I forgot my password, and left the blogging up to others. I also realized once i stopped blogging, I journaled more and have been hard-pressed to test whether the adverse would happen. I also struggle with how, for me personally, a [public] blog is just another chance for me to feel as if I have to perform, or be 'on'.

I've been praying through feeling this way in relationships for a while now too, which I'm sure will undoubtedly be touched upon in other entries to come. I don't want to take away from the intrinsic , and pretty awesome value of vomiting words on to a page in hopes of clarifying and processing. I don't want this to replace my quiet time and other random moments of journaling, which I'm not too too worried about, but i thought centering the blog around a theme and not just random nonsense would be helpful for me, although I make no promises that randomness won't occur =] So, with that in mind, back to blogging I go.

Wish me luck.